Witch of the Ditch

 "I know so many people who think they can make it alone. They isolate their heads, and stay in their safety zone..." - Brian Wilson I made it to the mat today. It was sooo hard, at first, every little baby asana felt like a struggle. About halfway through the practice, I started to feel good, warm and stronger. It's a recent lesson of mine to take my initial "I can't do this" feeling less seriously. By the end, I was looser than I've been in some weeks.  This Yoga with Adriene 30 Day Challenge feels like it could be doable.  Pat and I went out to There, a local gastropub, for a burger and beer. It was empty, and fun to sit and hang out and sip an ipa, and nosh on a perfectly cooked, very small burger. I haven't been out with my husband in months, it seems. I want more of that... I woke in the night with another anxiety attack. I pulled up Jay Chodagam's "declutter your head and free your mind" anxiety vlog, and listened to it, til I f...

 Happy New Year! It's been a hell of a 2022, but now it's 2023, so onward and upward! I thought to go into this new, improved blog, as part of my goal of looking inward, and feeling my feelings this year; a thing I've opted out of for the past few. But not feeling my feelings, staying busy, skating through activities, and escaping into social media or just spinning my wheels hasn't worked very well for me.  2022 was a year of health crisis for me. I was diagnosed with Patellofemoral arthritis, a painful condition that kind of sidelined me for a few months. I did PT, used ice and Voltaren gel in copious amounts, and have been kind of swinging between pushing through the pain and feeling better. I fell off the yoga mat, in a big way. I gained weight, around 15 lbs, which made a big difference in how messed up my knee was. I developed high(er) blood pressure. My body started to fall apart.  My dr. and I had a big coming to Jesus, and I've made a plan to try and regain ...